August 3, 2013

Tired of being tired

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
Wahh tengah malam dah ni,malas plak nak tido..Tak tido or tido pun sme je kot,neutral je rasa haha eh ntah betul ke tak ni =D Law dh meroyan tengah2 malam ni paham2 je la nape kan? haha pasal kt sekolah tadi laaa
ala just terasa sikit je,salah sye pun cuma yg nk tegur tu salah time..kebetulan mse tu ngah stress ngan pbs,so lost control sikit tadi haha tapi da pikir2 balik tak perlu la salahkan dia,mungkin niat dia baik,think positive la kan? Okay settle dah yg tu..

Yang kedua plak hurmmmm macam biasa la,jeles...haha takpela dah jumpa yang baru kan? yang lama pun dah lupa..takpe2 paham sangat,ala dah biasa da camni,dulu sama gak..depan mata plak tu.Hurm 

Haa lagi satu,risau plak ngan kesihatan sye sekarang,tadi kt sekolah tetiba loya,taktau la mungkin sbb bulan puasa kan,tak makan..tapi memang teruk sesangat la tadi,nk pengsan dah tp try gk tahan diri..pape jadi nanti susahkan orang lain plak..Alhamdulillah okay..

Haa ni last,kesimpulan la ni kan haha so kesimpulannya memang betul la orang dok cakap sye ni agak manja,sakit sikit je nk ngadu kat mak,kawan2,tu tu yg bwk keta putih tu haha sebenarnya bukan manja sgt pn cuma hurm taktau la cmne nak cakap..just kalau boleh nk share ngan orang terdekat..Maybe sbb takde kawan kat umah kot haha cm tak bleh pakai je ni =D senang cakap kurang kasih sayang la haha eh cm terlebih plak
Dah2 la mengarut,sebab banyak mengarut la sye hilang dorang..Sabar je la hati ni,law bleh scan memang banyak dh calar kot..kena toreh bagai hurm k nk tido dh,salam =)

July 27, 2013

Cikgu sayaaaa

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
hurm bnyknye lahai masalah bulan2 puasa ni,menguji sgt!
Ni dok risau pikir masalah ngan cikgu faveret sye tu,dia ckp dia
tak marah tp sye tau dia marah..
dia tak like status kt fb dh,reply whatsapp pn
pendek je..tau sgt..
Cam ape yg sye update sblum ni la,selalu sakitkan hati org
yg sye syg hurm..
Taktau la bila nk baik semula cm dulu,cm kt library aritu..
Terus terang ckp mse tu memang dh bleh lupa sume mslh,mslh
ngan org tu..sbb dh ade tempat nk luah
tapi rupanya still tak bleh,susah kan cmni?
Kawan2 sye mungkin taktau pasal ni,tp tula sye mmg emosi lebih
law pasal cikgu faveret sye tu..
Nampak dia dari jauh da mula nervous,haha dok pikir nk cakap ape..
Well mse kt library aritu tersenyap kejap haha
Still ingat lagi masa first time dia masuk kelas,form 3 rsenye mse tu..
Haha sye duduk depan sekali,depan meja guru..
Pastu dpt nmbr cikgu tu dr kawan,then mesej..
Memang best la mse tu,selalu msj,mms..
Tapi manusia kn,mudah sgt lupa yg walau mcm mne pun dia
tu guru,kena hormat..
sebab dok pikir dh rapat sye pn tnye soklan yg agak kasar tp sbnrnye
nk gurau je,,then gaduh..hurm lme gk la dia tak cakap ngan sye..
Waktu tu sedih gila,still ingat lg mesej2 yg dia anta mse tu..
Tak lama pastu baik skit..
Form 4 rsenye dia jadi guru kelas,mmg best la..
Hari2 dtg skolah haha hari2 kena usik ngan
dia dlm kelas..
Terasa gk jeles bb dia rapat ngan student lain,jeles okay!
Sabar je la..
Hurm harap sgt dia bce ni,nk terus terang tak berani plak..
Rsenye law dia bce msti salah faham lagi,hish memang
ape yg sye buat sume sakitkan hati orang ea?? 
 Hilang 2 orang yg pnting pada masa yg sme memang disaster! amboi ayat haha
So nk hilangkan sedih terpaksa la buat2 happy,sebbaek ada kwn2,
family..
Pape pun,sye mintak maaf sgt2! 
Banyak sgt wish list sye ngan cikgu n takkan jd
kenyataan pun..sye tau tu..
You're like a SISTER to me =) and will always be
 

July 25, 2013

lalalala

I wake up every morning wondering where am I going with my life, 
who am I going to hurt today, 
the people that try and help me and care for me, 
sometimes I feel like running away and not coming back, 
just so they can live in peace, 
but I cant! I love them too much to leave them like that... 
My life won't be perfect without them..
 I always seem to hurt the people I love the most.

*terjumpa ni masa ngah try google,bagus la..tak payah susah2 terangkan
 
 

July 14, 2013

I'm feeling so Exotic!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
Selamat Berpuasa korang!
dah masuk hari kelima dah ni..tak lama lagi nak raya =P
okay lama sungguh tak update blog,eh takde la lama sgt..
11 july hari tu MV Exotic keluar,mula2 cakap 8 july..
pastu tangguh 11,then terbaca dorg cakap 12 bb PC nk launch skali
tp tengah malam keluar haha sebbaek tergerak nk on9 twitter sebelum
tido..memandangkan line macam ape nth terpaksa la download
dulu,bru bleh tgok!
Video tu mmg agak HOT,exotic sgt! tp mmg best
So skrg dh ade 2,282,824 views kt YT n still counting!
bangga sangat!
Nah linknye,bagi yg berpuasa tengok malam ye..
Agak tak sesuai tgok waktu berpuasa,phm2 je la..
Btw,she's my WIFE! =) 

June 28, 2013

birthday hari tu

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
boring sebenarnya ni,so ingat nak cite pasal birthday hari tu..
da lama dah baru skrg ade mse nk update pasal tu,malas sbnrnye!
haha birthday sye xde la best sangat pun cuma tahun
ni agak best sikit bb dapat wish drpd #PCManiacs!
woahh pastu Armaan Malik pun wish,Syafie Naswip..jgn jeles! =P
haha n yang penting Vicknesh wish! 
tp tu la PC tak wish pun,xpela dia pn tngah sedih mse tu kan..
And kebetulan plak hari tu pun birthday mak dia,rasanye la...
So busy celebrate ngan family sume.

Okay tu hal Twitter,ni facebook n real life plak!
Kawan2 sye Afisah,Jannah,Su saje2 je lambat wish..Afisah plak
wt surpise,sje wish lmbt..so dia tag gmbr cake yg ade PC,google!
haha Jannah plak lupa,dengar muka selamba sye dok ingatkan
dia haha =D muka tak malu..
Su plak busy keje,balik keje terus wish,so sweet~ haha
Tu tu faveret sye 2 orang tu,sorang lg wish mesej,saje taknak gtau dia..
haha mesti dia tgok kt fb pastu wish kan?? takpela takpe la..
Sorang lagi??fb laaa...
Pape pun tak kisah la dorang wish ke tak (tipu sangat) haha okay2
taknak jadi plastik! 
btw thank u Su,Jannah coz bagi hadiah..terharuuuuu
Uhuk,lupa nk cite..dh paw ngan mak dah hadiah haha
Jarang k mintak hadiah kat mak,eh tak pernah kot! 
sekali sekala nk bermanja kn..

Haa lagi 1! tq Cikgu Mazlin bb bagi jam..macam tau2 je sye 
suka pink! =P haha dia yg tanya aritu
Kebetulan dia bg masa birthday dia 24 jun aritu,so kami tukar2
hadiah..malu plak hadiah sye tak seberapa..
Family? haha dorang da bg kasih sayang pun dh cukup.. =)
btw semenjak 24 jun hari tu sye asyik mesej Cikgu Mazlin je..
haha memang suka kacau dia..sekurangnya sye senyum gk..
Ni kalau dia bce ni ape nk jawab? haa jawab yang betul la..
She is one of the most important persons in my life!
kawan2 sye pun tau pasal ni n sye rasa dorang
da bleh baca da air muka sye bila tetiba ada Cikgu Mazlin..
Haritu terasa sikit,being ignored memang sedih kan..
Serta merta rasa sedih,nk termuntah..dh la hari tu puasa..
Dorang cakap pucat terus muka..So nampak kan cmne benda 
macam ni bleh effect sye?
Tapi tak bleh nk marah,still gk sye rajin mesej dia,wish dia walaupun hurm...

Malam tadi mimpi,she answered everything! then bangun terus mesej cikgu,
nampak macam okay tp sebenarnya tak..
Ish tak bleh ke 2 orang faveret sye ni jadi macam dulu?? 
Seriously rindu sangat nak jadi macam dulu..
Hurm dh melalut da cite ni,
bagus gk law dorang baca kan,so bace laaaaaaaaaaa
nak terus terang malu plak..
okay dh babai! tido jp

June 22, 2013

I'm feeling so Exotic! I'm hotter than the tro-o-pics!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
Lagu baru Priyanka Chopra dah keluar!
Exotic ft. Pitbull
So dengar la ye,lagu ni memang best!
Ade ala2 Bollywood sikit..
Enjoy!!!! =)
Btw,music video lom keluar lagi..tunggu 1 Julai nanti k..
Ni link lagu tu.. 

June 13, 2013

Do Not Stand at My Grave and Forever Weep

Do not stand at my grave and forever weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn’s rain.

When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and forever cry.
I am not there. I did not die.


- Mary Frye

June 11, 2013

RIP Dr. Ashok Chopra



ASSALAMUALAIKUM
Bad news lagi! too many things happened in this month..
Birthday dah tak lama lagi tapi benda cmni wt birthday cm
tak best plak..
Semalam dalam pukul 12.30pm waktu India,bapa kepada orang
yang paling sye sayang and sangat admire (Priyanka Chopra) meninggal dunia..sakit Cancer,dah lama dah tapi baru2 ni cm serius plak..
Seminggu PC jaga daddy dia kat hospital,lupakan pasal shooting
sebab nak jaga daddy dia..
Dalam waktu seminggu tu sume dah kecoh dah pasal Ashok sir dah ktirikal..
Sebelum dia meninggal tu SRK antara orang terakhir yang sempat jumpa
dia kat hospital,selain dia ramai gk la pelakon yg dtg..
Esoknya dia meninggal,yang paling terharu bila SRK sekali
lagi datang masa tu,dengan tangan dia yg sebelah sakit tu dia sanggup
tolong angkatkan mayat ashok sir walaupun guna sebelah tangan.
Deepika pun datang bagi support kat PC,sampai dia sekali yg menangis,
memang true friend..kebetulan hari tu birthday bapa dia tp
dia masih gak datang melawat..
Ramai gk la yg datang masa pengebumian,SRK,deepika,ranbir,shahid,
harman baweja,ranveer,anurag,karan johar n ramai lagi..

Siang tadi masa upacara prayer meet makin ramai yang datang
bagi sokongan kat keluarga Chopra..bebo,lolo,dia mirza dan lain2..
Kurang sikit rasa risau bila tengok industri bollywood sume bagi
sokongan kat PC,satu India terkejut dgn berita ini..Luar
India pun sama..
Masa pertama kali baca kat Twitter yang dorang cakap Ashok sir dah
takde sye memang terkejut,tak percaya pun ade..
Ada gak yg cakap dia hidup lagi,tapi bila wartawan dah sahkan
so memang betul la..automatic menangis..
Memang tak dapat nak cite betapa sedihnya rasa masa tu..
Korang sume mesti cakap sye over kan,Ashok sir bukan
sapa2 pun tapi jawapan sye senang je..
Dia ibarat bapa kepada PCMANIACS,kitorang sume dah 
macam 1 keluarga..
and I am a daughter too!
tak lama lepas tu
keluar plak gambar funeral,nampak muka PC yang sedih..
makin bertambah sedih..PC memang rapat sangat ngan daddy
dia..tattoo 'Daddy's lil girl' kat tangan dia dah cukup
buktikan dia memang sayang sangat kat daddy dia..
Tak sampai hati nak mention n bagi ucapan kat dia..bila
dia baca mesti dia makin sedih,taknak dia sedih =(

So semalam memang sye asyik menangis je,sampai pagi tadi..
Sampai termimpi,bila tengok gambar PC yang memang
dh macam putus harapan je mesti sedih..
Datang sekolah pagi tadi pun still terkejut n sedih gk,masuk2 kelas
je dorang cakap pasal Ashok sir..
Hurm korang memang buat air mata ni jatuh lagi,
tapi lega dapat cite ngan kawan2 ape yg sye rasa..
walaupun dorang cakap sye cm terlebih sikit.
Tapi afisah je yang paham,tq fisah =)
Sampai sekarang sedih kot,pelik gak tengok Maniacs yang lain macam
biasa je..just beberapa orang je yang still sedih,
ada yang tak tweet sangat,Vicknesh ngan Parakram 
la nampak cm ketara sikit..
Harap2 peristiwa camni bagi pengajaran untuk
kita semua..
Nak share sikit gambar2 PC..









 SRK

 Karan Johar

  Ranbir

Deepika


Ranveer







Yang ni fan dia yang tulis,touching sangat..

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6A_c8FAqsBQ&feature=youtu.be

June 9, 2013

I miss our FRIENDSHIP

I miss our friendship,
having you there to listen to me when i'm having a bad day.
I miss you giving me advice on everything.
  Apparently,I’m the one who screwed up in this friendship,
and I just wish you’d tell me how.
 But I have a feeling that you’ve moved on without me,
and now I’m drowning.
Everyday I think about it and it just makes life harder.
 Why is everything so different between us now?
Hopefully,one day you’ll realize that I’m seriously trying to get our friendship back into place,
but until then I guess I’ll just have to try and move on
because I don’t think you want anything to do with me anymore.
I miss you..
 

June 7, 2013

Nafisa 'Jiah' Khan

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
hari tu 2 hari tak on9 twitter,banyak benda yang jadi..
Dapat tau ni pun kat fb pastu baru check kt twitter..
Pelakon Bollywoos Jiah Khan mati,bunuh diri,dok gantung diri kt umah dia sendiri..benda ni jadi 3 jun aritu(rsenye),tp lambat plak tau..
Selama ni just tau nama je bb Maniacs selalu cite pasal dia..
Dia takde la femes sangat,tp ade gk la filem dia yg femes..ghajini,housefull,nishabd..
Katanya dia bunuh diri sebab tekanan,pasal career dia yg tak begitu baik sgt..
pastu sebab cinta..baru putus ngan bf..kesian gk pas baca pasal dia semalam..
Selalunya law pelakon yang tak femes sangat mesti sebab attitude dorang tapi saya tak rasa camtu..dalam kes Nafisa ni(dia lebih suka orang panggil nama sebenar dia) dia lain sikit..ni based on apa yg saya baca la,kawan dia cite..
Dia pun muda lagi,baru 25..normal la law sosial sikit..tak dapat plak nak share banyak pasal dia,just ada sikit je article pasal dia,jap lagi sye share..
 Dia ni islam rasanya tapi tu la bunuh diri..tertekan sangat..yang
sedihnya dorang cakap masa pengebumian dia takde sorang pun dari film industry bollywood yang datang..
Tau la tindakan dia tak elok tapi sekurang-kurangya hormati la dia buat
kali terkahir..masa dia hidup pun dia macam
dipinggirkan,terbaca gk kawan cakap dia ni sexy sikit..
Hurm tu hal dia,n maybe jugak dia pakai camtu atas
tuntutan kerja..she has a very good heart sebenarnya,selalu layan peminat
dia..hurm taknak cite banyak.just baca je la yg saya share ni k..

 
 
PictureThe Last time i met Nafisa 'Jiah' Khan
How i became a fan
Well i vividly remember in Grade 9 when i was in Boarding School, the trailer of Nishabd had come out and i was really very impressed with how it looked. Nafisa 'Jiah' Khan lasted in me a breathtaking first impression. That is where my love for Nafisa started. My friends then thought i was crazy to be looking forward to watch such a depressing looking movie but yet i was excited. It happened to be that i loved Nishabd, especially Nafisa's role and performance in it. So thats how my love for Nafisa started.

My interactions with her on Twitter
Well i must say i was a twitter addict back in the days during my Grade 12th. Annoying every celebrity till they replied to me was my ultimate Agenda there. Apart from Priyanka Chopra, Nafisa was the one i enjoyed tweeting the most. Also because she was responsive and that made my respect for her grow even higher. (PS: Check all her numerous replies to me on my twitter page's 'Favorite' section.) I remember her always having kind tweets for me and all her fans. And then one fine day she Follows me! Ecstatic as hell, i became one of her biggest fans. I always had sweet tweets for her. She always replied the same way. There was this one time when she first tweeted thanking all her fans for the support and she said how all their love keeps her going. Immediately after that tweet she herself tweeted, 'Especially Love @ParakramRana'.(sic) I really was touched that she thought of me without me tweeting her that day. And then seeing the few inactive Fan clubs of Nafisa, i decided that i had to make one for her. So lo and behold, i made the FC called @TheNafisaKhanFC. Believe me when i say it but Nafisa supported me fully on making this FC and she followed this Fan Club, the first thing when i created that account from twitter. She helped me gain some followers for the account. I mean what to say, she helped and supported me in every way possible. I remember the time when i saw her walking with Sooraj Pancholi in a mall but couldn't meet her that day due to some reasons, i sent her a Direct Message on Twitter telling her about how that guy better be a good person to be lucky enough to date her. She replied laughing and said not to worry as he is an awesome person. I did share instances from my personal life to her which she always supported me in a very casual and chill way. In other words, she always brought a smile to my face atleast once a week.
Picture
My few Meets with Nafisa
Well before meeting her for the 1st time, i had to confirm with her if i would actually get a chance to do so. It was a comic con festival where she came dressed as a Cat woman. Boy did she look gorgeous. Well before she came, she tweeted telling me that she would be there soon and how sweet i was to come and meet her. And then she arrived and i went running to her. This time i wasn't Dumbstruck but i was Numb-struck. I just said Hi and asked her for a picture. Understanding my situation, she just laughed and agreed to be clicked. She asked me how i was doing. We had a brief Conversation. She then attended her event of which i took pictures of which are below:
 So the event gets over and before she leaves she makes a point to hug me and thank me for coming to meet her. Well my day was made. Then i kept on bumping into her in Clubs, Malls etc etc. There was this event which she was attending that i wanted to photograph for my Fan Club in Twitter. Even then she was so worried and told me not to come as its pretty far from my place (So very caring of her). This was for Masaba Gupta's Satyapaul launch. I reached the event and very sweetly and guiltily Nafisa sent me a Direct Message telling me she wouldn't come as she had a Wardrobe Malfunction. I didn't mind, instead i was touched she messaged me. I bumped into her once at the Swedish House Mafia Concert and i remember being a little tipsy which made me go and scream 'Hey Nafisa'. She turned back and said 'Oh Hey, i was wondering who called me Nafisa.' (She loved being called by her real name) She introduced me to Sooraj Pancholi who seemed sweet to me. We also bumped into each other at the T-Pain gig at Royalty Club and she hugged me there too before we got clicked. Later did i know that it was the last time i would meet her before she passed away. (The 1st picture on top of this page is the last time i met her)

My message to Nafisa... 
I woke up to the worst possible news that you had passed away. My day couldn't have started more badly and sadly. You shouldn't have left this place so fast and so tragically. I would like to thank you for all that you have done for me. I hope i brought a smile to your face just like you did to me numerous times. You don't know how much i miss you. Will love you and respect your forever and ever till eternity. You were Beautiful, gorgeous, an amazing Actor and performer, a great singer and dancer. in other words, you were PERFECT for me. I hope you are happy where you are right now. Rest in Peace. I Love you Nafisa.

"The Jiah I Knew" - Siddhartha M Jain
By Bollywood Hungama News Network, Jun 5, 2013 - 04:28 IST
The shocking suicide of the 25 year old actress Jiah Khan yesterday has left the film industry in a state of shock. While celebrities and fans have been pouring in their condolences to the actress' family, a few made it a point to be a part of the late actress' last rites ceremony.

An obviously moved and saddened Siddhartha M Jain, who was a friend of Jiah's and was planning to work with her soon in one of productions, seemed upset with the limited turn out of Bollywood personalities at her funeral. Jain blogged about Jiah Khan on facebook and also vented out his anger towards her colleagues who failed to turn up for her funeral in Mumbai today. Following are the excerpts of the Siddhartha's blog on Jiah.

"The Jiah I Knew.

I still remember, sometime last year I got a call from Jiah's agency asking for a meeting with her. I quickly set up a meeting. I was expecting the Jiah I saw in Nishabd and had faint visions of her from Gajini and Housefull. But when she walked in, I was pleasantly surprised by her very cool, suave, stylish British/American personality. Very reserved, very proper. I think it was my strange office and silly humour that broke the ice.

We quickly had a series of meetings after that and in the process became friends. We had decided to work together, but provided we find that perfect script that could give her the positioning that she deserved. I noticed how guarded she was and beneath that was this young, talented girl who always felt betrayed by the world. She wanted success, but she also wanted to be happy. She was a kid. A young girl, thrown into our world of expectations, fake people and insensitivity.

I noticed how she would hide the real her from the world. She was very sensitive and emotional. She would sometimes want to enjoy the simple pleasures of being with her family and not wanting to work at an early age. But then her love for acting would fuel her ambitions and she really enjoyed performing. She felt she never got her due. She was always felt let down. She was the classic Pisces, imaginative, compassionate, selfless, sometimes weak-willed and easily led.

I remember having all kinds of conversations with her after we would quickly finish discussing potential scripts. She was very excited about the song, "Take Lite" that she sang and wrote for "Nishabd" and every time that topic would come, she would talk about how she wasn't happy with the way it turned out. Once she told me how she went looking for her granny's grave inDelhi and found it. We used to talk about her favourite TV shows like the"American Horror Story". She was very proud about how she can make the best pasta. We would discuss things like spirituality, intuition, destiny,the occult and everything under the sun.

All this in very few times that we met, for very few hours. We connected as people, as friends.We couldn't meet much, something which I regret now. I probably last met her 8-9 months ago when she graciously agreed to launch my calendar at an event in Mumbai. Since it was a fun comic book event, she asked me what she should wear, and I jokingly said Cat Woman. And that's what she came dressed as. She went into a strange cocoon in the last few months. Hardly any communication, she was withdrawing into a shell. I noticed it and was wondering why. I wish I had called her. I wish I would have met her and behaved like a friend. I thought she was busy. I was busy. But life waits for no one.

I got to know the real Jiah. The real Nafisa. I would always call her by her original name - Nafisa. She loved that name. I told her that people had told me to beware of Jiah but I realised it's the opposite. She needed to save herself from this harsh world of ours. I can never forget the the real Jiah, which was Nafisa.

And I must add my disappointment of almost seeing no one at her funeral, from the film fraternity."


ok,ni je la yang dapat kongsi,korang baca n nilai sendiri..yang pasti memang 
agak sedih bila tau banyak pasal dia..taktau la camne perasaan mak
dia masa jumpa dia dok tergantung tu..just jadikan pengajaran untuk
kita semua =) salam 

January 31, 2013

In My City music video is finally out!

ASSALAMUALAIKUM
wahh lama gila tak update..
Update ni pun bb nak share music video IN MY CITY,first single Priyanka didi
Baru je launch kt India kelmarin,tapi semalam baru ada kat youtube..
So harap korang enjoy!